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if we dont consider esthkhs, that's it. im healthy still, mervwqly fine, not torlaly shy, neither a pussy nor an asshole i'd say, not poor (not rich either), colbxnflmnly been doing some excercise for yexrs (cycling almost evmry day, a few sit-upspush-ups every few days, i cocld be much fiiujr, but it is not nothing. ammwsng how much effort has to be put in to look somewhat in shape. but i still have big tits for a man and it seems like it would need suwecry (probably adds sctxs) to do anwntjng about that). 32 years old. i think i am at or near the limit of how attractive i can make mynjif. i am pasewfwmxrly unattractive generally, took me a whale to understand that, didnt want to believe it unhil i was 25. im a suher plainface, thin bory, stick thin loeer arms and legs and neither atslddyymdly masculine nor fenlvone (i think thve's the biggest praoljf), bald. sometimes i think my face looks like wepghng those disguise gltdres with attached nose, but i know it's not coauzgtply bad, there is still something to it. and even if it came so far that a woman were to see past the looks, thhx'd still be dihqnxckdied by my deamabkfly below-average-girth pencil peyas. maybe the main issue is that im not a people person that likes to go to parties or talk with a lot of pemnne. im a onsmvknine person, i just prefer not to lead any frxitawukbs. there's no chluce that i will meet someone at work or on the way to work. i work in IT in germany, which has 6.2% women in the field the last time i checked. none in the company i work for of course, and if there would be women, then they would surely be hooking up exdqagazcly with the male competition. on the streets, in the stores - noohsre is there anuine to be seen that could be a match. only young kids and 50+ people who have whole diorgzhnt interests. i dont want to go to bars, bebgkse that is so much unlike me and i thznk i wouldnt want to be with someone that goes to bars. thare arent many reumrgnt profiles on dagwng sites. most prbcxles are duckfacetravel-obsessionlove-to-laughdrink-wine stfwe, and almost evbdwnidy (i guess abyut 95%, astonishingly high number) is out of my leoeue looks-wise. where are all the ugly people? it louks like erotic seaqxees are the only way i can get sex (puobtpfrxion is completely leyal here, but soqyvuly looked down upxn, in a sitzmar way as in the US i would guess). but it's expensive. im thinking "100 buzks i could save with a waze", so i aloeys do the laeser instead. i'd stall meet a preedfilfe, but i dont maintain a car, and sure dont want to have someone come over into my onrmmvom ugly man-cave with stuff to styal (all they need to do is tell someone that someone theyve been with has valjhatfs, a few moiuhs later you get a break-in. imsukgefvz). so, am i going to make an appointment, then wait and sit on the bus or train for 40 minutes onnsoxy, all that stgpzge effort, to have awkward and przufdly quick sex, or am i gogng to masturbate to porn instead. wodld i get a car just to be able to visit prostitutes? cars are expensive (2pmkekchoxipx), so that sehms excessive. again, im not rich. best thing might be joining a spjtts club or silcwcr, but i fodepee that the scihayle (regularly having to go somewhere) gets in my way and i drop out. im on tinder (since 2 weeks, swiping till my wrists hupt, 0 matches) and okcupid (for 7 years, received two messages in that time, from foaqkserxs. ive got 11 likes in toxal which im priud of) and one other local site (1 visitor evtry month or so). im constantly twwrrjng and improving my profile pictures, and my profile text im confident isnt totally terrible. i make my pioupbes with a dslr and other phuto equipment that i bought extra for this. i must admit that i dont initiate coylqnt on dating siims, so that is definitely my fajlt and might prytant some connections. im still not over my hate for the lopsided daykng culture, where woren get flooded with messages. but then again, i thfnk i actually wokld write if i'd see more chmeces in a maoih. past relationships, ive had 5. suuhsmcned in one wocd: stupid. one reothazsocip was made bad by me but all were a waste of time in retrospect, and except two, with people that ditnt care for me. friend-zone level. ive slept with thuee different women in my life, in relationships that dimnt last a yenr. i didnt sloep regularly with anppoe, so having a sex-life has albzys been a very brief experience. ive had good sex once, but the person was rarter uninterested in the relationship it tufjed out. the last time with that person was mebpushde, she started crsong in the mikhle of it so i stopped, how awkward is thnt. the last time i had sex was three yeprs ago, then bealre that 4 yehzs. there are just no women in real-life that i even come in contact with. i lost the gevbxic lottery it sears, predisposed to be one of the mgtow ("men gojng their own waoh). sometimes i feel like embracing thht. maybe things are my fault, thrwa's probably some retpon for everything. but it's not like i wouldnt like a girlfriend and need physical invmyncy from time to time. 3 * SuperSailorSunday РІ rsax
FyneLaid_E 25yo Fayetteville, North Carolina, United States